Ross was already familiar with anxiety. He had felt that uncomfortable twinge of heightened senses and the adrenalin causing sick feeling in his stomach before. But it wasn’t until an event that marked a traumatic loss in his life that his anxiety peaked to an unimaginable height.
Dealing with his sudden loss was to prove the most trying time in his young life. He explains that he, “Went from a pretty active young man to a guy who didn’t want to leave my home. I would get panic attacks everywhere I went.”
Anxiety had taken over, and though he had known it before, it was nothing like the kind of oppressive and constricting disorder he was now experiencing. Keeping plans became an impossibility; his body reacting to such things as life-threatening, sweat-inducing and anxiety provoking. So he was forced to cancel many of his plans directly after making them.
“It was an extremely dark time for me. I also became a chronic insomniac surviving on 40 minutes of sleep some nights. I would wake up terrified from terrible nightmares.”
And so as one part of his mental health began to falter, he found that feelings of deep shame and embarrassment began to come to the surface, progressing deeper into ill health. He realized quickly that if he allowed this continuous negativity left unchecked, it would end up plunging him further and further into a bottomless depression.
But, Ross felt too embarrassed and helpless with his mental instability to get himself help; a common feeling among those who find themselves with a psychological imbalance. It wasn’t until his worried family expressed their anguish at his diminishing wellbeing that he finally decided to turn himself into the hands of his doctor, to seek the help he desperately needed.
His doctor though, reliant on treating his patients with pharmaceutical interventions, only went so far as to prescribe antidepressants and Benzodiazepine drugs; used for the management of anxiety and panic disorders. It was at this point that Ross says he went from anxiety riddled to, “A good 18 months just being numb.”
So, like so many who are prescribed heavy sedative medications, Ross had to choose daily between dealing with his increasing anxiety, depression and insomnia, or the normalized and abhorred zombie-like symptoms of the medication.
Over these 18 months, with the help of medication prescribed by his doctor, Ross was able to grab the sleep he needed; though at a great cost to his physical health. During this time, Ross also gained 70 lbs in body weight. He began to feel as if all the pills and doctor visits were only continuing to allow this exhausting cycle of knock-on symptoms and pills to continue.
Ross saw that instead of living a healthy, happy and stable life, he was existing as an entity outside of his own field of influence; with no control over his autonomy. So in order to counter the medications that continued to fail him, Ross began pouring through research on his condition and the possible alternative treatments available to him.
It was during his research that he first became aware of CBD. Someone had mentioned CBD in an online forum, giving unflinchingly positive reviews of it for the treatment of their own anxiety. So Ross decided to give it a go and order some for himself.
This was where the search for alternative treatments almost ground to a halt. Many who discover CBD are at a loss as to which company to choose from or even which product may be right for them. As it happens, the CBD industry is largely unregulated with many companies taking advantage of the uncertainty of shoppers and even the laws regarding consumer rights, uncertifiable claims, as well as misleading packaging.
So when his package did arrive, Ross could not have been more hopeful of its contents, though this particular product was not to be the relief he sought. He recounts, “I ordered a generic brand and did not see much benefit. I gave up and tried many other alternative supplements, most of them offering tiny changes.”
Ross learned the hard way that branding and hype alone were not definite qualifiers for a product’s efficacy. Inevitably he became disheartened. He decided he just could no longer afford to continue expanding his energies on trying to find alternative medicines.
Ross felt at a loss. He felt dispirited over the hours he’d spent researching a supposed dead-end. It wasn’t until he went to an anxiety support group that something finally clicked. He met a fellow anxiety sufferer who spoke volumes of his experiences using CBD. Though still reeling over his previous CBD experiences, hearing that someone within his circle had used CBD and felt it benefits, Ross thought it may be time to retry.
So when two weeks later he again met with his friend, he couldn’t deny the transformation that had occurred. He remembers that his friend had “No anxiety and no low moods.” So, convinced by the changes he had witnessed first-hand, Ross went directly home and ordered CBD again. Though this time, he ordered from Endoca.
Purchasing the 2000 mg Endoca Hemp Paste as his friend had done, Ross began on a very small dose. The dose was just a quarter of a gram per day, so it took some time before he felt differently. He says, “Slowly but surely I felt a sense of wellness that I hadn’t felt in years. I began to lose weight, my skin texture improved, my mood seemed more uplifted.”
Then, the unexpected happened. Unexpected because it had been so long since it had occurred that he had almost forgotten the intoxicating, bubbly feeling. He says, “I just remember waking up one day after perhaps 6 weeks of taking a quarter of 1g per day to find myself laughing uncontrollably. This might seem bizarre but I hadn’t laughed like that in a long time and it was at that moment I realized that I am well. I am on the path to recovery.”
For the two years since, Ross has kept up his doses of Endoca’s 2000 mg Hemp Paste, while continuing to remain anxiety and depression free throughout.
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“It was a strange feeling one day I was on a bus I just thought these thoughts to myself–I don’t feel that way anymore, I don’t think that way anymore–It was this massive breakthrough moment for me.“
Since then, Ross has been able to get off his prescription anxiety and antidepressant medication; which he says is completely down to the use of Endoca CBD paste.
In retrospect, Ross still can’t believe the leaps and bounds he has made. He now has a social life, is anxiety free and feels alive again, not just like he’s surviving. Ross feels CBD has given him a quality of life that he believed was once far out of reach. And, with his incredible experiences to back him, recommends CBD to anyone.
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